When I was first diagnosed I had a hard time imagining or believing I'd get to see Elise wear 2T clothes, and here is she already wearing 3T clothes. My perfect, big, healthy girl. And I'm here to see it. God is so good.
Triple negative tends to recur most within the first three years from diagnosis and I'm now 2.5 years from diagnosis. I'm feeling dangerously close to the "safe zone". Like maybe in six months I can finally exhale the last bit of that breath I've been holding since March 1, 2013? It's just too good to believe.
If you know me, you know that I'd always been a big "planner"-- planning future vacations, planning my future children, planning my career moves, even planning for retirement. Once I found out that I had cancer I stopped doing all that. I felt like there was no sense planning if it could all blow up again at any moment. I wouldn't plan vacations that were more than a couple months away. But lately I've felt myself starting to plan again. Daring to believe that I'll be here in a year, or five, or twenty-five. Praying to God that somehow I won't "jinx" it all by planning. But also realizing that I know now that even if plans have to change, God is in those plans to.
Heck, I never even considered the possibility of more kids, and now I'm an 18 month long fertility study for young cancer survivors. And I've started to think that there's a remote possibility that we could have another kid. Unbelievable.
I don't have a good conclusion to this post, but I think Ecclesiastes can sum it up the best, "When life is good, enjoy it. But when life is hard, remember: God gives good times and hard times, and no one knows what tomorrow will bring." (7:14)
Amen.
This is a lovely quote from Ecclesiastes. I think we all need to remember this one a little more.
ReplyDeleteI love you and I'm so thankful that you're doing so well.
So glad to hear you are doing well!
ReplyDeleteI really love this post. I love that you are healthy and have come so far. I love that Elise is thriving and so big and that you're there to experience all the "fun" of having a toddler. And I love that you are feeling hope again in your future. Happy 2 years! (And happy anniversary to you and J!)
ReplyDeleteCongrats! Fingers crossed for many, many more cancer free years!
ReplyDeleteI really love this post. I love that you are healthy and have come so far.
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