Chemo Break

I'm officially 10 days into my chemo break and besides not having any hair I'm feeling like a regular ole pregnant lady. Achy back, ribs hurt from getting kicked, braxton-hicks contractions -- just the usual stuff for the final weeks of pregnancy. But no lasting effects from the AC chemo that I can pinpoint.

As I explained before, I'm taking a break from chemo until I deliver the baby and then I'll get taxol chemo.

It makes me nervous to be off chemo for ~6 weeks. Like what if my tumors start growing or spreading? I just want to keep fighting this beast! I know that being off of it for 6 weeks is not a big deal and I trust my oncologist, but I just keep thinking I want this baby to hurry up and get here so I get back to chemo. However, I also know I'll have a better delivery and heal quicker if I rebuild my blood cell counts (which I'm doing right now) and if I let her come on her own. 

I'm trying to figure out what I want to do for the next five weeks. I'm working for two more weeks and spending lots of time in between having lunches and dinners with friends. Oh and I still have a million dr. appointments (mainly for the baby, not the cancer). But other than that, I don't have any real goals or things I need to accomplish before she gets here. I feel ready. Another reason that I just want her to come already.

Just to show you how "normal pregnant lady" I've become, I made a little belly-comparison collage. Each of these photos are 7 weeks apart.

Grow baby grow!

Actually, I lied, there is still one thing I still need to do before baby girl gets here... pick a pediatrician. I want someone who will embrace my milk-sharing, organic baby food-making, integrative medicine philosophies but can also deal with a type-a, hypochondriac mother (however, I think I've earned the right to be a bit of hypochondriac, don't you agree?). That's a tall order.