Saturday, May 4, 2013

Chemo Break

I'm officially 10 days into my chemo break and besides not having any hair I'm feeling like a regular ole pregnant lady. Achy back, ribs hurt from getting kicked, braxton-hicks contractions -- just the usual stuff for the final weeks of pregnancy. But no lasting effects from the AC chemo that I can pinpoint.

As I explained before, I'm taking a break from chemo until I deliver the baby and then I'll get taxol chemo.

It makes me nervous to be off chemo for ~6 weeks. Like what if my tumors start growing or spreading? I just want to keep fighting this beast! I know that being off of it for 6 weeks is not a big deal and I trust my oncologist, but I just keep thinking I want this baby to hurry up and get here so I get back to chemo. However, I also know I'll have a better delivery and heal quicker if I rebuild my blood cell counts (which I'm doing right now) and if I let her come on her own. 

I'm trying to figure out what I want to do for the next five weeks. I'm working for two more weeks and spending lots of time in between having lunches and dinners with friends. Oh and I still have a million dr. appointments (mainly for the baby, not the cancer). But other than that, I don't have any real goals or things I need to accomplish before she gets here. I feel ready. Another reason that I just want her to come already.

Just to show you how "normal pregnant lady" I've become, I made a little belly-comparison collage. Each of these photos are 7 weeks apart.

Grow baby grow!

Actually, I lied, there is still one thing I still need to do before baby girl gets here... pick a pediatrician. I want someone who will embrace my milk-sharing, organic baby food-making, integrative medicine philosophies but can also deal with a type-a, hypochondriac mother (however, I think I've earned the right to be a bit of hypochondriac, don't you agree?). That's a tall order.

4 comments:

  1. There's more to say, but for now I'll leave it at this: YOU TOTALLY ROCK!!

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  2. You look great, Momma!! Best of luck finding a pediatrician you love. One piece of advice that helped me when choosing ours is someone told me to remember that you're not stuck with them for life. If you choose someone and then you realize a few months down the road they're not the right choice, you can always switch! A bit of a pain, yes, but you're not glued to them!

    6ish more weeks til Baby G :)

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  3. Looking great! Soon you won't have a bump and a lump, that bump will be in your arms.

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  4. You look great! Good luck finding a pediatrician, and you've totally earned being a hypochondriac:)

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